Brilliant album. Also applies to current situation.
Hello, friends. It’s been a long time since I sat and wrote in this here blog, favouring podcasting for a time. Recently, I’ve been thinking about how much I miss writing. There’s something cathartic in coming here and typing away. I was wondering if I should pack in the podcast and maybe return to doing this on a weekly basis…
And then the fucking hard-drive broke, didn’t it?
I kept everything on my hard-drive. All the films I’ve made, all the photos I’ve taken, and all the podcast episode I’d recorded. There were future episodes I’d recorded, too, that I was hoping to launch soon. The hard-drive corrupted, and then access was denied. Everything was lost.
I cried. I sat there and fucking sobbed. Moreover, it was entirely inconvenient. Events of this nature always are, aren’t they?
If you’ve been here for a little while, you know I’ve tried to find meaning from it. It’s what we do here. If there’s nothing you can learn from situations like this then you’ll go through life thinking that things are happening to you, not for you.
So, from the process of a corrupted hard-drive and day-long drama that ensued, I’ve gotten this from it:
- You can prepare for the future as much as you want; life will still happen.
I was in the process of pre-recording podcast episodes, planning in advance. It was going to be a superior method that would allow me to (finally) release weekly episodes again. However, for all the hard work, it’s not come to anything. I could plan all I want but life still had a few surprises for me. I can’t really be angry at that. I assumed I could control situations and plan everything from start to finish. I can’t; I may have a vague idea, but I need to learn to be flexible.
- Be careful what you wish for.
The day before, during my devotional practice, I asked Spirit to help me learn to surrender to life. Hahahahaha. Honestly. My response to this entire situation was “I wanted you to help me surrender but why did you have to do it this way?”
- It’s just stuff.
Yeah, it’s all sentimental stuff, and stuff I’ve worked hard on over the course of three years. It sucks that it may be gone forever…But I’m still here. As long as I’m still here, so is my potential to create things all over again.
- Life is an endless process of loss and gain.
We gain, we lose. We go through cycles. Nothing is permanent. Nothing, nothing, nothing. We don’t own anything, even if we think we do. You can either mourn for that and call me a cynic, or you can rejoice in the freedom of that and be so grateful we get to experience all this.
- Back up your shit in the cloud, folks.
I mean – that’s not bad exchange for a piece of electronics failing, is it? It’s all a lesson, my dears.
Oh, and as for the lost episodes of my podcast? As I was saying earlier, I’ve missed writing. On that basis, I’ll be writing that episode instead of podcasting it. Looks like I’ve got my chance to write again, after all.
What lessons have you been learning lately?