I’m not really sure how to word this post in a way that a) makes sense and b) doesn’t make it sound too cheesey…But, I’m going to give it a go anyway and see where we end up.
Good. Let’s go.
Lately I’ve been trying to practice a more mindful approach to my days and, so far, it’s been a very rewarding process. I don’t want to say too much just yet but it’s interesting to see the gentle shifts I’m experiencing in my mentality and perspective. One of the ways in which I’m also approaching a more mindful-based day-to-day living is through practising gratitude. The way in which I incorporate this into my life is, usually, I come home from work, make myself a cup of tea, light some incense, sit in silence, and take some deep breaths. Through doing this little routine, particularly the breathing, I arrive at home both mentally and physically; all the little naggings or stresses I’ve picked up during my day, the little mindless thoughts that scatter themselves through my mind, are put in one place and silenced. Then, I turn my attention to reflecting on my day, just sitting with the feelings of gratitude for the things I’ve encountered and being thankful for them. It’s such a great way to end the day, start the evening, and bring a little more positivity and light to my mind.
During one of these moments, I started to reflect upon love and just how bloody grateful I was for my family, and other people I hold dear to me, and their love they had for me. It all sounds a bit self-centred when I type it out; I think that we are always encouraged to love others, and love ourselves, but it’s rare that we’re told to reflect on the love others have for us. Perhaps it’s because we so often feel unworthy of such love, or feel that we are not loved at all, and it can be hard to admit people love you because this can be considered egocentric. But it’s not – and it’s good to reflect on how much love people have for you, as you are, warts ‘n’ all. There are people in your life who fucking adore you and they know all your difficult points. It’s such a hugely humbling feeling – it’s something that we can’t control because people are in charge of their own feelings toward you, no matter how much you believe you can ‘win someone over.’
Anyway, I digress; as I reflected on these ties of love, I felt so overwhelmed and grateful. I felt this love just flow through me and, instead of resisting it, I let it freely move in my heart.
My family are everything to me and I don’t always show it (and, like many of us, I take it for granted sometimes) but, think about it –
How amazing is it to have people who love you?
Who think about you often?
Who want the best for you?
Who want to see you happy?
Who encourage you to be the best you can be?
Who will make sure that you are safe and happy?
All the love is wished to you by these individuals all the time but we so often feel alone, or undeserving, or uncomfortable, by such a simple truth; you are loved.
It made me realise that the person I was, the person I am, and the person I will become, has been shaped by those who love me. The people who have picked me up when I’m down, who listen to me when I am upset, who comfort me when I cry, who share in my laughter and joy, who desire nothing but the best for me…
And the same applies for you. You also have people in your life who love you so much and they hold you in their heart as they go about their day. This is something so extraordinarily beautiful. When I thought about it, simply knowing that if shit hit the fan in my life, I would have people there to run to for help…this is what gives me confidence and strength. Their arms are open and their love is wide. I am who I am because of them, and there is such a freedom in their love. They have granted me a liberty that is coveted by many and I am utterly floored by it as I consider it now…
In this respect, love is such a wonderful thing we take for granted. I am so thankful to my family for constantly sustaining me, for giving me strength, for giving me life, for making me the person I am, and for always holding me in their heart.
I encourage you just consider the ones who hold you dear. Think about the ties of love that you have in your life that sustain you – most of it is behind the scenes but, regardless, you are tied together in love. Let them know how thankful you are, and always have gratitude in your heart for them. Be humbled by such love and then pass the same onto those you hold dear.
I know this has been a little cheesey but I always want to be honest on this blog and this is probably my most vulnerable post yet. It’s just a reflection of how I feel and I wanted to share that with you in hopes that you can share in this feeling with me, too.
As I write this, I’m reminded of a quote by Elizabeth Gilbert in her book Eat, Pray, Love. I’ll sign off with this and leave it with you:
“In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay back the people in this world who sustain our lives. In the end, maybe it’s wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and to just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices.”
Sending you all love this Sunday and always…